No one can understand how i feel now.
Often, i looked up in the sky and imagined me in an aeroplane, flying to beijing.
I've been looking forward to tt day since sec 1
To be exact, 1 year, 11 mths and 2 days.
Now all my hopes are dashed.
I have to wait for another year, before it's my turn to go.
But i'm going wif 2 different grp of ppl.
2 different feelings
No more wt, sam, hy, ps, merlin, kf, se, jy, vanessa, germain, xy, xx, km
They are going to have loads of fun w/t me
I missed all my beijing frend.
I can't let go of this
By nxt year, i'll have different buddy, different Beijing frends.
Wads the point of letting me go nxt year?
It's all different.
It's so not fair. It's unfair.
But who can i blame?
The teachers?
The principals?
Marilyn?
It's not their fault.
I'm to blame. I hate this.
All u guys can do is to ask me to look at the brighter side.
But can u understand how i feel?
As i'm typing, my tears are dropping.
My heart is breaking It is crying.
None of you understand.
No more bball, cycling, captain's ball, badminton.
No more cannoeing, dragon boating.
I've missed out so much fun.
Tis is the price tt i'm paying.
I've learnt my lesson.
I've sacrificed enough.
This is so cruel.
I do not wish to think anymore.
But i cannot bring myself to do it.
The more i think of it, my heart juz ache more
It's lyk thousands of knife stabbing my heart.
10 Days
How am i suppose to live for this 10 days while they are gone?
Sry.
I can't keep my promise in going beijing wif u guys.
But if u were given a chance to backout and join back nxt year,
will u accompany me?
