Hi ppl. I'm kind of having a mixed feeling now. I am feeling sad, happy, worried and nervous. Great, u muz be thinking i am sot de. Why got ppl sad le still happy? Plz allow me to explain it to u. (Doesn't it sound formal?)

I am feeling sad because Xing Guang Bao Bei got kicked out in the It's Showtime Competition. I mean, we have put in a lot of effort in it but apparently, the judges juz dun see it. Cried a lot about this incident. Esp at Mediacorp when we heard the comments from the judges. Bird broke down first. After tt, yoke ling and jia ying cried a little. Than i started to cry. Than i saw yan rong crying and after tt, we wanted to go toilet to wash our face and to our surprise, a lot of ppl crying at the stairs there. Well, it's hard not to cry becoz we really sacrifice a lot of thing esp our time. Than, in the toilet, i saw cosmo they all crying than i felt sad and i cried again. Apparently, where ever i go, i will see ppl cry. So, i will cry all the way. Sad rite?

Than i cried again yesterday nite becoz my family said a lot of hurting words to me. I mean, i'm so sad now and yet they are still saying a lot of negative comments lyk dun waste the $$$ coz u will nv win de. Might as well save the $$$ than we go eat. Or they will juz say we wun get in, might as well spend the $$$ voting for other grps etc. Than i was hurt. It's lyk they juz dun understand the situation neither will they understand me. At least, i'm glad tt i'm not lyk them after attending Mr Koh's class. Mr Koh rox! Teaches us a lot of things about life and after hearing wad he said, i really feel positive in a lot of ways unlike my family members. "Always look on the bright side" and i really think tt we shld not give up without trying. Than i was lyk saying to them: "Chung Cheng High was the last in the first round and they got in. This time we are ranked No.3 there is a higher chance of getting in!" Apparently, they juz ignore me and say the competition is tough and it's hard to get in. Than they juz talk crap and i feel lyk taking the double-sided tape and paste on their mouth. I mean, u dun wan vote than dun vote la, talk so much for wad? Make more noise pollution only. Than my father kept telling me i need to see the situation and he had repeated tt for a lot of times. I feel lyk screaming at him. Shut up ur Big Fat Mouth! Stop talking, u are not helping at all! You are only making me more sad! I HATE THEM! Heng lorz, i not lyk them so negative. At least, my mother voted for me 5 times than i called 5 times myself. My sis say wan help me vote but i doubt so lorz. anyway, in the end, we still got out. But, at least we tried. Not lyk SOMEBODY else who gave up without even trying at all. Sucks! I dun feel lyk talking about this topic anymore, lets change topic ba if not later i more sad.

Ok, i'm feeling happy becoz i have learnt how to swim but there is still room for improvement. At least i can swim 1 breadth of swimming pool and is able to get air. But Sumin and Peiling say i a little bit tense and nervous, muz learn to relax. Than they say i can pass the swimming test nxt week if i practice a few more times. Cool huh? Ok, and i'm nervous about it too!

Anyway, i am quite worried now becoz tomorrow is Teahcers' Day and i haven even bought and presents yet. But later i going Sunshine place so i think maybe I can buy from there. Yikes! i wan to go play maple now, i very long time no play le. Cya!

Signing off lemonade

Hey guys and gals, it's been a long time since i lasted updated my blog. Sry for tt becoz after the It's Shoetime thingy, I have been very tired and sick so, i took a long break. I promise to update more nxt time. Btw, if you would lyk to noe more about the It's Showtime thingy, u can refer to my friend's blog. I am too lazy and tired to talk bout it anymore. Her url is: www.vision-of-truth.blogspot.com (at least i think so)

Basically, I juz now tt even IF we nv get in the nxt round, i noe tt all the 1A-ian will stand together side by side. Win together, lose together, teammates (copied from HSM) But than horz, u all muz vote for us lehz. Plz call 1900-112-2002 or sms S2 to 7119. Call as many as u want, sms as many as u want. Promise u all tt we will do out best after we get into the nxt round and nv dissapoint those who supported us.

Anyway, I am sicked and within 2 moths, i am sick again. OMG! Hope i recover fast so i can sing and shout agian and do things tt i want to do.

So, nxt wed is a sch holiday for my sch. The sch gave us back 1 day holiday for the general election and apparently, we made gd use of it. Let me tell u wad i plan to do. On nxt wed, we(jy, sy, sm, yl, yr, xx and me) planned to go swimming at CCK swimming complex. Our swimming test is coming soon so everyone grabbed this chance to revise our swimming strokes. Kind of afraid tt i will not pass the test. My family and friends pinned high hopes on me and i dun wish to dissapoint them by failing. Afterall, they spent so much time on me and my other friends teaching us how to swim. Than after tt, i might be either meeting Hazel they all go buy Miss Chiam's and Mdm Loh's present or maybe go meet up wif Pei Ling and go Sumin's hse do Teachers' Day Present. If not i will come home straight away and complete all my hmk. I am still waiting for Bird's reply. I have asked her she want tag along or not than i still not sure of her ans. From wad i heard from her, she said tt TPS they all olso going swimming. Not sure if its true. It's such a pity tt Cosmo can't go as she got Netball BBQ.

End of tt swimming topic, lets move on. Apparently, on nxt fri, it's Teachers' Day Celebration and everyone is looking forward to it. But i haven even prepare or thought of wad present to give. Sianz. And i heard tt Mdm Loh is pregnent. Not sure if it's ture. If true de hua than i congrat her and i might buy some baby toys for her. Than if rumours not true de hua than maybe i buy chocos for her ba. See first lorz. ZX say he going nxt thursday so maybe i wait and see if it's true. Than i noe tt BPGH releasing at around 12+ ,NYGH is 10+ and Hwa Chong is NO STUDY! Suck. My sch releasing at around 11.30a.m. Can't they juz release earlier? I mean, i need time to travel i dun fly to sch. -_-" Enough of this crap. I am so frustrated now.

I still have a list of uncompleted hmk. And on my top of the list is Literatue and Eng. Opps, i forgot to add in maths. My goal todae is to complete my Literartue and Maths exercise 13a. tt's all. If i have time, i will continue wif 13b.

I find tt i am changing these days. Yesterday, i finally noe y ____ cried so often. Becoz i er juz noe it as i had experience it yesterday. I cried a little during art. Becoz i felt a little gulity for letting the rest of my grp members wait for me to finish drawing. Very guilty indeed. I dunnoe y,i juz dun lyk the new art teacher. I find tt she is giving me a lot of stress. i noe my art is lousy and from the beginning, i dun lyk art at all. Maybe yes, during P1-P4. Than when i was in P5 nad 6, i began to hate art. Until Ms Sha(my sec 1 art teacher) stepped into my life and made me start to look forward to art lesson. Maybe she's strict byt she is humourous and will demo to u how to draw. But she left recently and my new art teacher came. I started to hate art. She made me stay back after recess to complete my artwork in class whne i DUN EVEN NOE HOW TO DRAW! her lessons were simply boring. i remember i stayed back after recess juz to draw autralian art, japenese art, egytian art and chinese calligraphy. U noe i have no talent in art so DUN FORCE ME! Perhaps i cried not only becozi felt guilty maybe becoz i sick too. than i was having a slight fever but than i dunnoe.

Ok, latest news. My sis met SM, DL and PL on bus 300. She sat nxt to them and than chatted. becoz DL kept disturbing ppl in the class, so my sis go disturb him back. I can imagine tt it is a very very very funny thing. Lalala. i can say he zi zuo zi shou. who call him everytime in class disturb the other ppl. ok larz, i got disturb him too. By, taking DC pencil box and throw at him. Quite huo gai. Hahaha. Ok le larz, i wrote a lot le, its time for me to stop now. Cya!

Signing off, lemonade =)

Sry for not updating for such a long period of time. Really very very sorry! I will try my best to update more in the future kaes? Anyway, i have a whole list full of undone things. SO STRESS!!! Have a look at wad i need to complete:

1. Finsh the Props for It's Showtime by Friday.
2. Do my physics worksheet
3. Write the Script for the It's Showtime(SUMIN!!! U OWE ME THE STORYLINE FOR TOO LONG!!! PLEASE MAIL IT TO ME OR ELSE...)
4. Biology hmk on the similarities and difference for respiration and Photosynthesis.
5. D&T hmk

Maybe it's not a lot to u but, its seemed a lot to me. I have to complete them by tomorrow!!! I dun use the word try becoz Mr Koh said there is no try, only u do it or dun do it. Sooner or later u still need to complete these, might as well complete it in the shortest time!

I noe my blog is not done up yet and i will try to finsh it asap. Hopefully.

Lets recap wad happened the past few days since i have not update it for such a long time. Do it once ba!

Yesterday, we had celebration for National Day and everyone was do HIGH!!! WOOOO!!! Especially the Uniform Groups. We had Parade form up. ROCKS MAN! After tt we went to hall and watched the concert and we sang and sang and sang. So Fun! And it was Sumin's B'dae yesterday. Isn't it amazing?!

Last Friday,i the mediacorp crew came down and filmed us. And i happened to be one of the "lucky winner". For more information, plz catch the TV programme urself becoz i was too lazy to type.

Apparently, i have changed. tt's wad i noticed about myself. I am being short-tempered these days. First, i had a fight wif _______. Than a few days after tt incident, i fought wif ______ ___ ____ _____. HE SUCKS! Pushed ____ ____ and __ ___ into the drain. Hwai Yi and I saw it. He is so childish. Fancy pushing ppl at this age. Wad happens if both of the got injuried? Esp __ ___. Wad happened if she break her leg? Her leg was already not in a gd state. WTH! IS HE GOING TO HOLD THE RESPONSIBILITY?! I DOUBT SO! HE RUNS AWAY AFTER CREATING TROUBLE AND THE REST HAD TO HELP HIM YET, HE DOES NOT REPENT AND KEPT ON DENYING. WTH! After tt, Hwai Yi left first and we walked to Lot 1. than, ______ pushed me. Nearly fell. NVM! I will REMEMBER! So, on monday, after Props making, I pushed him and nth big happened to him. GUESS WAD?! HE PUSHED ME TO THE WALL AND I HIT MYSELF. SUMIN AND PEILING WAS SO PAINFUL. FINE. I WON'T HOLD IT AGAINST HIM SINCE SOMEONE SAID: "THE GOVENMENT SAID MALE AND FEMALE IS EQUAL, WHY SHOULD I GIVE IN TO HER?!" AFTER SUMIN AND PEILING CALLED HIM TO GIVE IN TO ME SINCE I WAS A GIRL. HELLO! I DUN NEED HIM TO ACT NICE! I DUN NEED HIM TO ACT AS A GENTLEMAN! BECOZ HE DOESN'T BEHAVE LYK A MAN! TT'S THE WHOLE POINT! NEITHER MALE NOR FEMALE. WAD IS TT? A TRAN-SEXUAL (did i spell correctly?) ?! THAN U NOE WAD HE SIAD LATER? HE SAID:" DO U NOE TT IN THE PAST WHEN THE FEMALE BEARS A GIRL THEY ABORT IT?!" I WAS SO ANGRY! I RETORTED BY SAYING:"HEY IF THERE IS NO FEMALE, THERE WOULD BE NO MALE!" I FEEL LYK TELLING HIM:" I DUN MIND HELPINMG U FIND THE TALLEST BUILDING IN THE WHOLE WORLD AND LET U JUMP DOWN SINCE U ARE A TROUBLE-MAKER. MIGHT AS WELL END UR LIFE AND MAKE OTHERS HAPPY. IF HE DIES I WOULD BE THE VERY FIRST TO CELEBRATE HIS DEATH. A GOOD-FOR-NOTHING PERSON. AND MY ARM STILL HURTS NOW. I HOPE TT IT SWELLS SO TT WHEN MY FRIEND ASK I CAN SAY THE TRUTH. NOT TT I WAN TO SAY IT. BUT IMAGINE IF U CAN OFFEND PPL TT U DUNNOE FROM UPPER SEC AND MY SENIOR, HOW GOOD CAN U GET? FURTHERMORE MY SNIORS ARE VERY GOOD PPL. HOW COULD U PROVOKE GOOD PEOPLE EASILY?! SHUT TT CRAP! I AM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW. BEWARE OF THE DANGER LURKING...

anyway, it's national day, lets not spoil our mood becoz of tt dumb guy. Let's be happy! WOOO!!! Btw, who wants to go to mediacorp on 19thAugust and watch the filming of It's Showtime, plz tell me. I will try and get the tickets. But u muz asemble at Kranji Sec first than they will bring u to Mediacorp. After the show, u will be brought back at the school and be dismissed. Plz tell me asap if u wanna go. Ok, it's getting late and i think tt i shld stop posting now and go do my hmk.

Signing off, Lemonade