Hi ppl. I'm kind of having a mixed feeling now. I am feeling sad, happy, worried and nervous. Great, u muz be thinking i am sot de. Why got ppl sad le still happy? Plz allow me to explain it to u. (Doesn't it sound formal?)

I am feeling sad because Xing Guang Bao Bei got kicked out in the It's Showtime Competition. I mean, we have put in a lot of effort in it but apparently, the judges juz dun see it. Cried a lot about this incident. Esp at Mediacorp when we heard the comments from the judges. Bird broke down first. After tt, yoke ling and jia ying cried a little. Than i started to cry. Than i saw yan rong crying and after tt, we wanted to go toilet to wash our face and to our surprise, a lot of ppl crying at the stairs there. Well, it's hard not to cry becoz we really sacrifice a lot of thing esp our time. Than, in the toilet, i saw cosmo they all crying than i felt sad and i cried again. Apparently, where ever i go, i will see ppl cry. So, i will cry all the way. Sad rite?

Than i cried again yesterday nite becoz my family said a lot of hurting words to me. I mean, i'm so sad now and yet they are still saying a lot of negative comments lyk dun waste the $$$ coz u will nv win de. Might as well save the $$$ than we go eat. Or they will juz say we wun get in, might as well spend the $$$ voting for other grps etc. Than i was hurt. It's lyk they juz dun understand the situation neither will they understand me. At least, i'm glad tt i'm not lyk them after attending Mr Koh's class. Mr Koh rox! Teaches us a lot of things about life and after hearing wad he said, i really feel positive in a lot of ways unlike my family members. "Always look on the bright side" and i really think tt we shld not give up without trying. Than i was lyk saying to them: "Chung Cheng High was the last in the first round and they got in. This time we are ranked No.3 there is a higher chance of getting in!" Apparently, they juz ignore me and say the competition is tough and it's hard to get in. Than they juz talk crap and i feel lyk taking the double-sided tape and paste on their mouth. I mean, u dun wan vote than dun vote la, talk so much for wad? Make more noise pollution only. Than my father kept telling me i need to see the situation and he had repeated tt for a lot of times. I feel lyk screaming at him. Shut up ur Big Fat Mouth! Stop talking, u are not helping at all! You are only making me more sad! I HATE THEM! Heng lorz, i not lyk them so negative. At least, my mother voted for me 5 times than i called 5 times myself. My sis say wan help me vote but i doubt so lorz. anyway, in the end, we still got out. But, at least we tried. Not lyk SOMEBODY else who gave up without even trying at all. Sucks! I dun feel lyk talking about this topic anymore, lets change topic ba if not later i more sad.

Ok, i'm feeling happy becoz i have learnt how to swim but there is still room for improvement. At least i can swim 1 breadth of swimming pool and is able to get air. But Sumin and Peiling say i a little bit tense and nervous, muz learn to relax. Than they say i can pass the swimming test nxt week if i practice a few more times. Cool huh? Ok, and i'm nervous about it too!

Anyway, i am quite worried now becoz tomorrow is Teahcers' Day and i haven even bought and presents yet. But later i going Sunshine place so i think maybe I can buy from there. Yikes! i wan to go play maple now, i very long time no play le. Cya!

Signing off lemonade